yesterday I accessed some very old compacted energy that was almost bitter tasting. a few minutes later I identified it as the energy of “I want”.

I had so suppressed my energy of “I want” that it was bitter and almost fermented. I have never allowed myself to truly feel “I want”. I have held myself back from success / achieving since age 6 and the stagnant energy is from wants / desires that I did not allow myself to pursue.

And in my back, behind where i sense / feel my stagnant energy, I can sometimes feel a vice like grip that is painful and that I have associated with many things. but just now I got that it is an aspect or part that I put in place to protect me by holding me back and not allowing me to pursue hopes and dreams. gawd that’s huge.

I’m hoping that now I can release it or embrace it or whatever the hell it is that we do with our aspects/parts.