My reading of Self Help and Personal Growth books evolved into me reading books about Spirituality. This led me to deeper thinking and also to some confusion about what appeared to be discrepancies.

On the one hand during my Practicum for the Group Home job, I had spent time at each of the three houses that the Agency operated. I had then “decided on” the house I wanted and I had gotten a position at that house. So weren’t these Spiritual books saying that that meant I had been putting out my Intention and seeing it manifest? So how come I wasn’t still at that job?

On the other hand, I remembered the time that I had looked at the yellow and green tile counter top in my kitchen and knew that it had to go. Having neither a plan nor a budget, I just started the dismantling. Then one of my Real Estate clients was moving from a house that had been bought by a developer and the client’s house was to be destroyed. The updated kitchen cabinets from the client’s house had fitted into my kitchen like they had been custom made. 

When I read about Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) I thought about the first time that I had flown into Mexico. As the plane was descending, I had suddenly had a horrendous headache, which was surprising as I am not generally prone to headaches. But across my brow there was a line like a headband of points that felt like they might burst. The pressure/pain was one of the most intense I have ever felt. I remembered how I had leaned forward and instinctively tapped along my brow. At the time I had no idea why that suggestion came to me. Now I’m wondering if my body had some memory that prompted me to tap along my brow.

As I was reading about Creative Visualization, I gasped as I remembered the day that I had decided to teach myself to ride a bicycle. A friend of my brother’s had left his bike leaning against our barn. A perfect opportunity.

I had known that in order to gain my balance, it would be necessary to attain a certain amount of speed. The road in front of my parents’ farm was paved, and went gently downhill from our driveway. I figured that should take care of gaining the speed, but what to do about the fact that I didn’t know how to make the bike stop? I had decided that I would pull into the driveway of a neighboring farm just before the road went into a steep turn. I figured that when I stopped pedaling, the bike would coast to a standstill.

I got up on the bike and pushed off. After a couple of wiggles, the bike and I were upright. Soon however, I realized, that the bike was picking up speed much faster than I had anticipated. I had a fleeting moment of panic and then somehow I knew to keep picturing the bike and myself safely pulling into that driveway and coasting to a stop just as I had envisioned. So had I actually “known” about Creative Visualization as a kid?