In a dream I got up from the desk in my office and went into the hallway.
The hallway had changed
and now had a door between my office and the neighboring office
and my office was now part of offices belonging to a different company.
I felt in No Man’s Land between my old company and this new company.
Following this dream I began noticing a new reaction on my part
to phone calls from clients.
The reaction was that many times I didn’t seem to respond
to the point where the client must have wondered if I was actually still present.
It didn’t necessarily feel like withdrawal or avoidance in the old sense
just a blankness.
Like one client did the intimidating thing – no response from me just a blank.
Another client did the poor me why is no-one helping me thing – no response from me just a blank.
It’s not that I felt anger or fear in response to the intimidating client
or Oh Please in response to the poor me client
it’s like part of my mind was saying this has nothing to do with me.
Maybe, it’s like the song “I’m Already Gone.”