i was doing some “beditating”
when i touched upon a memory/feeling that was not pleasant to remember/feel.
into my awareness floated that we need to “feel it to heal it”
so i directed my focus to “feeling” the emotion /memory.
as i focused and breathed the feeling/memory intensified
and i congratulated myself that i was finally healing this memory/emotion.
then i felt an adverse energy/acknowledgement arising.
this energy/acknowledgement suggested that by focusing on “healing” the feeling/memory
i was trying to change it
thus in fact rejecting it.
oh my !
so i relaxed my focus on healing the feeling/memory
and allowed the energy of allowing to brush up against it.
that felt good.
it’ll be interesting to see how it all feels next time that feeling /memory surfaces.