i was doing some “beditating”

when i touched upon a memory/feeling that was not pleasant to remember/feel.

into my awareness floated that we need to “feel it to heal it”

so i directed my focus to “feeling” the emotion /memory.

as i focused and breathed the feeling/memory intensified

and i congratulated myself that i was finally healing this memory/emotion.

then i felt an adverse energy/acknowledgement arising.

this energy/acknowledgement suggested that by focusing on “healing” the feeling/memory

i was trying to change it

thus in fact rejecting it.

oh my !

so i relaxed my focus on healing the feeling/memory

and allowed the energy of allowing to brush up against it.

that felt good.

it’ll be interesting to see how it all feels next time that feeling /memory surfaces.