i’m discovering that my shadow also includes some so-called “positive” traits.

i was an exuberant, feisty, carefree 3-5 year old who gave up these traits

because they made the adults in my world uncomfortable.

so i adopted more serious and responsible traits.

same with my self-confidence and “being full of myself” as my mother used to say

and which the adults around me considered to be arrogance, vanity and pride.

shadow work is helping me uncover my exuberant, carefree, confident self.

recently i was able to access the part of myself who had all of these traits i had given up.

then i felt them fading away and i realised i had difficulty objecting to the fading away.

i felt regressed to the age where todders say “mine”.

even then i was able to say “mine” with only about 75% of the strength which i would like,

but i’m happy to have accessed this part and reclaimed 75% of “mine”