It began with an exercise

where we were to connect with the love that we felt for someone

Breathe In that love

and then send the love to the Grid

to be picked up by anyone inclined to do so. 

I found that I had some resistance to this exercise.

later as I was falling off to sleep

I felt this huge rush of Love energy coming to and through my nostrils.

For a few moments I just basked in the luxury of receiving this energy.

Then I had the thought to receive it and then return it

may even have felt that I should return it

it felt like the energy came in

filtered through my heart

and then “I” sent it back out.

For a few minutes after I started this

the energy would build

and then it would stop or become uncomfortable

like there was a block somewhere.

I repeated a few times (1) just receiving and (2) receiving and returning.

Same results each time.

The receiving felt wonderful but once I “insisted” on also sending back

the flow and nice feeling stopped or felt uncomfortable.

It’s true that I have recently said

that my cells have a low vibe of receiving

which I choose to upgrade,

but I’m also wondering

if there’s something here about me / us moving away from consciously “sending” love

and simply “radiating” love.