I have left jobs hoping to find my “passion”, only to always return to jobs that “pay the bills”– so I have a memory of failure.

One day I thought how previously, I had tended to stay focused on work until I quit and then once I was unemployed, I would start focusing on my unemployed state with its associated pressures and fears.

This time I thought, why don’t you fast-forward this movie and pretend that you’re already unemployed. That way you can experience the pressures and the fears while you also have the luxury and comfort of a pay check.

And you know, it worked. For 24 hours I was in absolute terror.

Thank You to the part of me that during this time, reminded me of previous times of turmoil when I have survived.