this self-worth issue is a two-sided thing

i accessed an emotion / feeling that i have identified as self-loathing. it was the most vile thing i have ever encountered.

during that time i recalled a conversation i had had with my non-physical friend tobias.

He & i were discussing past experiences of lying and betraying that i had been involved in. we discussed that in many of these experiences i had lied or betrayed to protect members of my family or community.

but then i had the sense that there was something that had not been said / acknowledged. so i asked tobias if all of my lies and betrayals had been to protect others.

i can still feel tobias’s gentle response of .. not all of them sharon not all of them.

the implication being that there had been times when i had lied and deceived to protect my own skin.

so yea self-loathing would be there for acceptance.

i’m finding that this self-worth issue is a two-sided thing.

there’s accepting / loving my grandness

and there’s accepting / loving my un-grandness

About sharon-clark-rowlands

Sharon Clark Rowlands is the author of “Oh, We Should Have Told You” which is the outgrowth of a Journal kept during several years spent in the pursuit of personal growth and spirituality. The book contains both personal experiences and “messages from someone outside of myself” and will stimulate you to reflect upon and to gain insights into your own experiences and provide you with inspiration and comfort as you navigate your own Spiritual Journey. view Sharon's author page at and her facebook page for her book
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