lately i’ve been experiencing memories of past “shameful” behavior on my part. memories that i have previously suppressed and that now are coming into my awareness. it has been quite painful to remember some of the behaviors. but remembering i am. no longer pushing the memory back under the carpet.
just now while allowing myself to sit with one such memory i was surprised to witness this little tyrant come forth screaming “yeah well he/she deserved to be treated like that. remember what he/she did to us”. omg this little tyrant was FURIOUS. so i see now that it was this hurt little tyrant who caused the “shameful” behavior.