i’ve been experiencing memories of past “shameful” behavior on my part.
memories that i have previously suppressed
that now are coming into my awareness.
it has been quite painful to remember some of the behaviors.
but remembering i am.
no longer pushing the memory back under the carpet.
just now while allowing myself to sit with one such memory
i was surprised to witness this little tyrant come forth screaming
“yeah well he/she deserved to be treated like that. remember what he/she did to us”.
omg this little tyrant was FURIOUS.
so i see now
that it was this hurt little tyrant who caused the “shameful” behavior.