when i first arrived at my current home a small brown otter was down by the bank of the water maybe 60 meters away.

last summer i saw it around the neighbors house maybe 40 meters away.

the past couple of days it was right up on my patio within maybe 2/3 meters of me.

this morning it came around the corner and was surprised to see me. it retreated back around the corner, peeked around to see me still sitting there, hesitated then scurried forward to where it had been going.

i too had a moment of fright when i first saw it. i was taken by surprise and i had considered stepping back inside 

 As an aquatic animal, the otter is a symbol of life. Why? Because the prime symbolic meaning of water deals with the divine feminine, which is a major life-giving energy. 

so i was thinking otter is feminine. i carry a lot of wounded male energy.

so otter & i were feminine & masculine afraid of each other.

yet after our initial fright we each faced our fear and went about our day.

otter hesitated then scurried forward to where she had been going. i hesitated then continued forward to my smoking rock.

so i thought that’s my lesson.

my masculine and feminine have feared each other.

3 years ago we were 60 meters from each other.

this morning 2/3 meters and while we didn’t touch we have come a long way.