I had rather forgotten about the whole issue of a possible talk with the VP as my son was visiting and we were doing family stuff.
My son left one morning and that evening I remembered the work thing and I thought, “Hey, I must have escaped that ordeal”.
The next morning I got the “I need to see you for a few minutes” email from the VP.
Since the request was by email, I decided to take a smoke break before I responded.
I was amazed at the feelings that came up during this smoke break. I don’t want to do more accounts. Well, maybe I could do this much more. Maybe I could trade one of my smaller accounts for a larger one, etc. etc.
I even saw myself start the tape that said, “don’t you dare change things, I want things to stay just the way they are, until I have manifested what I really want”.
And then I remembered, that I had been seeing my job as temporary and wondering why “what I really want” had not been manifesting.
“what I really want” has not been manifesting because I have been holding onto “things staying just the way they are until….”