during my sleep, i was asking or being asked, if i could see myself with a romantic partner. i felt a couple of my non-physical friends around, but they weren’t helping a lot. it was like a movie started in my head. a review of several romantic relationships i had been involved in and some new insights, not all of them favorable to me.  

i asked if i was integrating an aspect, because it didn’t really feel like an aspect, as usually aspects seem to come with some aha or knowing about what caused them. i guess their story. one of the non-physicals said aspects are or can be thought-forms and that’s what i had transmuted. a thought-form. 

at some point, it got to how one of my romantic attractions had actually been obsessive, and i also saw that it was that same obsessive energy, that was in my over-mothering of my son. 

i woke in the morning, so f’ing stiff especially my lower back, and more physical pain than i have felt in ages. i then spent 3 days unravelling or shedding more energy of obsessive attachment.

i was surprised to see how over-attachment in parent-child, sometimes shows up as obsessive in romantic or vice versa.