i was doing some “beditating” (lying in my bed doing some deep breathing 🙂 ) when i touched upon a memory/feeling that was not pleasant to remember/feel.
into my awareness floated the teaching that we need to “feel it to heal it” so i directed my focus to “feeling” the emotion/memory.
as i focused and breathed the feeling/memory intensified and i congratulated myself that i was finally healing this memory/emotion.
then i felt an adverse energy/acknowledgement arising.
this energy/acknowledgement suggested that by focusing on “healing” the feeling/memory i was trying to change it thus in fact rejecting it.
oh my ! 🙂
so i relaxed my focus on healing the feeling/memory and allowed the energy of accepting to brush up against the feeling/memory.
that felt good.
it’ll be interesting to see how it all feels next time that feeling/memory surfaces.