As my current bout of bursitis was clearing, I received a phone call from a friend of a friend. After the “business” of the call was completed and we had done a brief “how are things with you?”, I could feel that this person (whom I had met only once) was settling in for a bit of a heart to heart. I found myself thinking that a bit of a heart to heart was not what I wanted and so as quickly as I could, l gracefully ended the call.
The next morning my “bursitis shoulder” was a little painful – and also cold – which I sensed indicated frozen emotions coming to the surface. The phrase “cold shoulder” flashed across my mind – and then expanded into “giving someone the cold shoulder”. And I realized that I do this a lot – someone that I have just met or met only once wants to get closer and I put a stop to it. I’m Getting something about how “giving someone the cold shoulder” (withholding) is also a form of “keeping them at arm’s length” and I got a vision of my right arm extended with my open palm acting as a Stop sign – like No Closer Than This. And I’m thinking that Stop sign would not only stop the person on the other side of my palm – it would stop Love, Abundance and anything else that wanted to flow in. And the back of my “hand Stop sign” would stop the flow of the Love/energy flowing out from me which would cause a backup/blockage which I believe has been the root of my bouts of bursitis.
Then while Breathing I had a vision of the serial presence of several ex-boyfriends each lying with their head in the crook where my right arm joins my body. And each of them was reminding me of ways in which I had not loved / honored myself. The area of my body where each had laid his head grew very warm and then cooled and when it was cooled I felt / saw yards and yards of a cloth like substance being gently pulled from that area of my body.
A couple of days later I had a vision of a hole in that area where the ex-boyfriends had laid their head. And it is the same hole where in an earlier vision I saw my Abundance energy pass through my body when I had been asked if I was ready to receive my Abundance. And I am seeing the connection – Self Worth (self-love, self-honoring) and Abundance