I had met up with 2 friends who were all abuzz that they had just seen a Flasher. Out of my mouth came “Well, was he at least a good looking Flasher?” My friends were almost stern, saying “No, he was gross. We called the cops. The cops said we did the right thing, that people like this must be stopped or they will go on to do worse things etc”. Meanwhile, I realized that I was locked into compassion for the guy, thinking “Oh he’s just doing his thing. No need to get your knickers in a knot.” Suddenly I was aware that one of my friends was giving me a look that said, “I’ve always been a bit concerned about you. Now I know you’re nuts”.
i was listening to some channeled material and St Germain was asking if we’re ready to “Go Beyond”. For about 5 mins St G talks about how if we gave permission to Go Beyond our life would change and the changes might be drastic. I’m sorta playing with the idea of well how drastic could changes in my life be. I’ve already Let Go of so much. St G says we don’t need to decide now, that the space will be kept open, we can come back later and decide etc. etc And I FEEL that I have decided to wait and come back later. Then St G continues saying but we’re at a fork in the road and people who give permission will go down one fork and those who do not will go down the other fork so in a minute he’s going to ask who gives permission. And at that moment I became conscious that my soul / consciousness whatever HAD GIVEN PERMISSION and little human me is sitting here thinking / feeling Oh Wow I get the concept ..AND.. OMG I gave permission.
i was in a restaurant deciding what to order. i knew i was having warm seafood but would i have it as a salad and as a stir-fry. my mental debate was including things like .. well last time you had the salad you still felt a bit hungry afterward. this was countered by, well if we’re still hungry we can have another salad, or something else. i also heard .. if you have the stir-fry with the veggies and rice you’ll probably feel like going home for a nap because it’s so filling. so i checked in with my body. body wanted salad. ok. and as soon as i had ordered my cells started doing this little happy dance. then i got this feeling-knowing that i was releasing a bit of the survival-paradigm, the paradigm that says make sure you fill up while you’re here, you don’t know when you’ll eat next etc. and i can see that this experience allowed me to deepen my level of trust.trust that there will be food later, trust that i won’t be hungry. i have known that i have several aspects who died of starvation, or at least lived lives of much hunger, so it’s wonderful to have released those, developed some trust, and i believe moved a bit more out of the survival paradigm