It began with an exercise where we were to connect with the love that we felt for someone, Breathe In that love and then send the love to the Grid to be picked up by anyone inclined to do so. I found that I had some resistance to this exercise.
Last night as I was falling off to sleep I felt this huge rush of Love energy coming to and through my nostrils. For a few moments I just basked in the luxury of receiving this energy. Then I had the thought to receive it and then return it (may even have felt that I should return it). Doing so, it felt like the energy came in, filtered through my heart and then “I” sent it back out.
For a few minutes after I started this, the energy would build and then it would stop or become uncomfortable, like there was a block somewhere. I repeated a few times (1) just receiving and (2) receiving and returning. Same results each time. The receiving felt wonderful but once I “insisted” on also sending back, the flow and nice feeling stopped or felt uncomfortable. It’s true that I have recently said that my cells have a low vibe of receiving which I choose to upgrade, but I’m also wondering if there’s something here about me / us moving away from consciously “sending” love and simply “radiating” love.
I’m now actually considering a couple of other possibilities. one I’ve already hinted at by saying that I have chosen to upgrade the receiving vibe in my cells, that previously I have tended to be more into giving than into receiving so maybe I have some sort of imbalance correction going on and this may be a personal temporary thing.
also last night my initial reaction to the gush of love I received was “oh X Thank You”… like I felt I knew who was sending that love to me and when I tried to send love in return, maybe that was blocked by the proposed recipient for whatever reason.